A year gone by

It’s been a year since i’ve written a blog. A year with good and bad things. Trials and travails.. getting back into love and yes of course, firmly establishing myself in the domain of physical sciences – my small contribution to this world, a paper in PRA. Sometimes I have felt like running away, away from everything, work, friends, family and everything. Felt numb. Yet at other times, i have never felt alive than before.

One thing, over the past year I have grown up. Grown up a lot. Banters about getting married..  never-ending hues and cries from my extremely concerned relatives, a here and there try by mum,…  work pressure, what to do after phd..  where to stay..  what postdoc, what job.. all ..  extremely tiring. I miss being that kid with a one track focussed mind. I want to study here, and this is my goal..  it seems the goals are too many now, or too less. Achievable ? or just complicated and hazy because of other constraints ? Post the quarter life crisis..

For now, I feel like making new friends, reliving those college days, those carefree, careless moments.. the infinite tea sessions, the barista blasts,.. the momos.. … yea..  someday may be goa with friends. .

 

A postmark

A golden slope that rolls into the lake,

Sunshine that awakes a dead soul;

A web of thoughts that seem to melt away, and clear a doubtful mind.

It’s a day of sunshine in Ithaca,

A day to be upbeat and gay;

Tis time, I dare say, to search for a new way.

An escape

I simply remember my favourite things and then I don’t feel so sad…

Mindless Ranter

My first experience of giving a 26 hr exam! I could not pace myself well, I dont think I did particularly great. I just gave up in the end. Since 9 pm on friday, I have precisely done nothing. I let myself flow and spent time away from Physics. Enjoying every moment..  clinging on to that lil bit of hope.. its much like holding sand. It’s weird, because there are no fights, there is no bitterness, there is care, there are smiles, there is fun, there is craziness, there is madness, there are giggles, but there isn’t something. I’ve experienced the best and the worst of relationships and i could hold on to none. That’s the saddest and best part.

I went to a gathering last week. It was organized by a few people who run a society called ‘ASHA’ – promoting child education in India, collecting funds for the same. I was amazed at the level of discussions. ‘Adda’ at the highest level, like the Romans and the Greeks. I felt like a moron amidst cultured and brilliant people. Great thinkers in their respective fields, yet thinking about social welfare of a country so far away. The primary driving force being – “I have to do something” . When i came back home, a few things kept reverberating in my mind. Why is it that people back home(with due respect to the young and the old) in my family never understand this? There are so many things to do, so much to know, and yet people are so hell bent on fighting and creating pain for everyone, instead of trying to create a peaceful ambiance. Sharing, caring and loving: aren’t these the ingredients of a harmonious household? How do people become so narrow-minded?

Negative energy has accumulated too much in my system. I need to dissipate it.

Creations..

My stuff :P

Part 1: The junk that the machine shop people gave me  –

Raw stainless steel

Part 2: And then i machined it to this

Machined product

ps: The hole is off center for a purpose   Me need to put set-screw holes

Part 3: The final product:

My awesome fiber holder

Wind, Water, Earth, Fire

Waves

Love

Colors of life

A Promise

A promise I made,

A promise I broke;

A promise I make to myself,

A promise that I will keep,

A promise of self-restraint and worth,

A promise to keep afloat.

A promise to be the girl I used to be,

A promise to be merry, happy and glee;

A promise to have a clear vision,

A promise to achieve my goal.

Resonance. .

A piece that i love …

“To suffer woes which Hope thinks infinite;
To forgive wrongs darker than death or might;
To defy Power, which seems omnipotent
To love and bear, to hope till Hope creates;
The thing from its wreck it contemplates;
Neither to change, nor to falter, nor repent;
This, like Glory, Titan, is to be,
Good, great and joyous, beautiful and free,
This alone is Life, Joy, Empire and Victory. “

- Shelly